And if you go chasing rabbits
And you know you’re going to fall
She could feel dirt under her fingers, it was cold and wet. Rosalie opened her eyes and took what seemed like it was the first breath of life into her lungs. It burned, it felt she had not been breathing for a while. God her head hurt she reached up and touched her temple it just gave an other painful throb. Her mouth was dry and her voice felt scratchy. She had no idea where she was.
Get up and tell you where to go
And you’ve just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving slow
Slowly she got to get feet, and looked around her. She seemed to be in the park that was a few blocks from the school, what the fucking time was it? The street laps were on and it was so cold, that she could see her breath. With trembling hand she looked for her phone in her pocket. It was after four in the morning, what the fuck was she doing out here. For a moment she thought of calling Rox but thought against it. She was most likely sleeping, and she didn’t want to worry her sister, she could handle this.
Tho she was not sure what… this was. Her jeans had wet knees and her hand had scraps on it. She turned her right wrist to look at it and let out an his when she saw the angry red cuts there. She needed to get back to her dorm room, she prayed to anyone out there that Ari was asleep.
Go ask Alice
I think she’ll know
To her luck she was able to make it back to her room, and in her bed with out any problems. Wrapping her fuzzy blanket around her she tried to think. Remember anything, the last thing she remember doing was she had been here in her room, listening to a new piano piece and was trying to learn it. Then nothing, she didn’t remember anything after that, but she had lost a span of four hours. Everything was getting worse, it was happening again. The last time this happened, is when dad went missing. God, she never felt more lost. Pulling her knees to get chest to closed her eyes, and tried to will it all away.
When logic and proportion
Have fallen sloppy dead
And the White Knight is talking backwards
And the Red Queen’s “off with her head!”
Remember what the dormouse said:
“Feed your head
Feed your head
Feed your head”
It was around noon, and Rosalie wanted to be anywhere then where she was. The waiting room in the Doctors office was boring and she had already read all the magazines that where thrown on the end tables by the hard back chairs. She leaned her head back against the wall and looked up. She didn’t want to be here, she wanted to be back at the school, or having coffee, any where but here. She hated that she had to deal with this. She didn’t want this, she didn’t want to see the things she saw, or have to listen to the voices that where always in the back of her mind. Her head snapped up as the door opened on the other side of the room and her Doctor poked his head out.
He was a older man in the late 40’s it seemed like. She stood up and swung her back over her shoulder and walked over to the door. The Doctor stepped back letting her in the room. Making her way over to the big leather couch she dropped her bag and sat down crossing her legs under her. She watched as the Doctor got out his notepad and came to sit in the big leather winged back chair. He looked over her chart before taking off his glasses and looked at her. ” So, How have you been?” It always started out like this. He would ask the same thing each time and she would answer the same each time.
” Things are going good” She said as she picked at the sleeve of her shirt. The doctor raised an eye brow and shifted in his seat. ” Are they really? How is school going, I know the change will be different for you” Rosalie pulled her over her shoulder and started to play with it. ” It’s not as bad as I thought it was going to be, I am still feeling a lot of guilt over the fact that Rox had to move with me. I would of been fine if she stayed home. She got into that great school and everything.” She started to ramble off, she had been having a lot on her chest. ” And there is this guy Craig, that seems to have taken a liking to her, which makes me worry. Me and him putting it nicely don’t get along” The doctor let out a laugh at that comment and she couldn’t help but smirk a little.
“Why do you not get along” The doctor asked her. She sighed and rubbed her forehead with her hand, she could feel a headache come on. ” It started when he called me crazy, and it just grew from there, half the time I don’t even know what we are fighting about, He opens his mouth and says some smart ass comment and then I see red. If he hadn’t been such a jerk I might of been friends with him. Him and Rox are starting to talk more, and that makes me worry. She is so sweet and nice, and doesn’t like to judge others, which I love about her. But I don’t want something to happen and she get hurt.”
The doctor nodded and wrote down a few notes and looked back up at her ” What are your feelings for Craig?” She glared at him, ” I just told you, and I am done talking about that” The doctor just nodded.
By the end of the session she was tired as all could be. They wanted her to try something new to help with what she was seeing. She didn’t tell the doctor that she had not been taking her pills. She was fine, Sure she saw things that where not there, and had normal hangs outs with a Lion. But the thought of being on those pills just made her sick. She didn’t want to have this problem, she wanted to be normal.